Sam.I.Am

Laziness~

2012-02-18T08:39:00.000-08:00

Basically I'm lazy. Tonight I'm freaking lazy but not too lazy for this blog I think. I've been dancing for the whole night with my awesome comrades. It has been a while actually that we get to meet each other like before. I don't know, some of us was just too busy with anything else, studying, playing or even sleeping. Whatever it is I haven't bath. HAHA. I know its funny but mannn if only human being are made to be odourless I wouldn't waste my time to freaking bath

-.-

Cut it off.

But don't take me wrong I'm kind off an hygienic person okay. Just not at this particular time. Lol. Actually sometimes talking about my day is not that fun at all, I mean for you to read I guess. I don't even talk about everything I did, I just simply said my day was a good or a bad one. For today I'll say its a good one.

Valentine's day just passed. Not a good one cause he forgot it. I was like "Are you even my boyfriend that even freaking love me like you did before or at least that's what you told me?". Seriously I'm a bit mad and emotionally bruised caused I expected a rose or a poet or just a wish? But then its not that important anyway and to tell you the truth I felt like its a typical Tuesday. Nothing special. Nothing boom boom pow to my eyes. So maybe I forgive him for this. Why would I be mad for something like Valentine's day? -.- Perhaps its just that its kind off a wake up call to me to realize that he may forget my birthday, our anniversary and it goes on and on. ;( Screw that. Negative thinking is nothing but worries and sadness. Soooo yeahhh...(awkward)

My result for final sem is out. Actually it was. Screw me. I suck. So yeah prep class here I come. I don't mind actually. Frankly, I study more nowadays. I got into a new class and its quite awesome cause majority of my classmates is my close-friends. So yeah, new teacher and surroundings, its awkward for the first few weeks but I'm blending in. I think. Pre-As is around the corner, crossing fingers to pass this like so hard. Still I'm wasting my time here, but wait this can be my practice for IELTS right? Why not? I'm sure in IELTS people talk about their life right? Like "Tell me about yourself." that kind of stuff. But its hard though to talk infront of some random people who you never know about 'yourself'. Lol. I might even talk about Glee -.- oh crap. I hope I won't.

So after reading my awesome friend "Jessie Gloria" blog, I would like to do the same exact thing that she's doing now. The challenge! *drumroll

So here goes the Day one:

1. I stink don't I?
2. I miss you :(
3. Why you so pretty?
4. You're a b*tch

5. Nobody likes you

6. I love your complexion!
7. Happy Birthday!

8. You can act very well!

9. I think you're handsome

10. You can't dance

Yeah! I'm done for now. So what do you say? Wanna take the challenge up? ;)

To blow kisses on your cheeks,

~sammy

New year in total boredom~

2011-12-31T20:53:00.000-08:00

Yes practically its an absolute boredom. Eventhough there were barbeque and people celebrating new year, I still feel a bit lost, like I'm somewhere else, my body is there but my soul is running away. I don't know why but I just feel a bit weird this few days. Gosh. Is this a process of growing up kind of thing? Coz it scares me :(

Oh well. Basically, I'm sucks in 2011. Not even once I feel awesome with my result. I'm a total lazy brat. Yes, I don't even pass my Cut Off Point last semester and some of my friends did. I feel like a total idiot. Mid semester examination is coming and I haven't started studying yet. I HAVE TOO. Its not like I don't want to study, well maybe 60% of me don't want to but who cares. I'm sick for the whole december and its killing me ;( luckily I recovered pretty well. Hooray! But it looks like one of my housemate somehow got infected by me. Feel pretty bad about it but what to do, living in one house means you'll going to share everything including diseases or viruses. HAHA.

Okay, let's get serious now. I'm sucks. I feel like I lost myself in 2011 and I just hope I can get myself back this 2012. I feel yes sucks most of the time. Sometimes I don't really care about it but when you're the only one who look lost, you just have to care. Anyhow, Christmas is great :D Love it so much but New Year feels weird.

So Happy New Year everyone :D Have a blast 2012 and God bless us ^^ (have to start studying ><)

Sickness ;(

2011-12-20T08:18:00.002-08:00

hey everybody. yeah im sick :( im sick for almost 3 days now but I'm feeling better. i hope so. Anyway, nothing is interesting for me to talk about here since all I do for the whole day is sleeping, eating, bathing and take my medicine. Ugh. So boring. I can't even join the family day today in my college :( but its for the better right? for me to take enough rest. I'm really thankful to have such a loving housemates here. They all were like so nice to me, which I didn't expect them to be but Thank God, he sent me 3 angels when I'm sick :) Thank you Chiu Woan, Suxien and Cony :D I appreciate everything you guys did for me. And mum and dad who always called me to check whether everything is okay with me. Who knows these people might had just increase the chance of me getting better. Oh well, its 12.28am now and I don't wanna be late to class tomorrow. Its not that I sengaja cari penyakit sleep this late but I sleep from 4pm till 10.30pm just now. Haha. So u do the maths ;)

Till next time,
To blow kisses on your cheeks ^^
~sammy~

Good times don't last~

2011-12-04T17:01:00.000-08:00

As the subject says, good times don't last. Now I'm having my one week holiday in Sabah with my beloved family :D I am so happy but it is only for one week and it will be over. Its not that I should weep over it. I just hope I would have more time to be with my family. It has been 6 months since I last met them and I just hope this one week I will spend time more with them, together as a family. Yippee! :)

You know what I suddenly have the thought of changing my URL or delete some of my previous post. The reasons? I am sick of the past. It is so weird that people spend more time thinking about the past rather than thinking of the present that would change their future. Not to mention me, lol. But not all past was bad right? Some were good and yes most of it were bad. But of course you need to keep moving forward, you need to push yourself towards reality, cause in reality there aren't any past, in reality there's present, there is NOW, you have to seize the day or carpe diem. So maybe I just have to confront the truth that I can't change anything about my past especially the horrible one but I can change my future to an awesome one :)

Anyway, I'm at my grandma house right now. Sleeping over with my siblings here. Luckily its not that boring since there's internet and ASTRO so we kind of survive here. Lol. O ya, we even brought along a ukulele! Do you know what it is? It looks like a guitar but its two times smaller and it have only 4 strings. The chords is different though but for me it is still much easier to play rather than a guitar. Guitar is much more complex. I think so. Hehe.

Look! That's ukulele! :)

To blow kisses on your cheeks,

~SamNicole~

2 years and we won't stop :)

2011-12-04T02:11:00.000-08:00

Hooray! We had finally reached 2 years of our life fighting, crying and inevitably misunderstand each other but hey you know what we survive all of it. You can't never imagine how I really love this man that always gave me butterflies in my stomach. His eyes. His smile. His laugh. All of it is something that I would die not to have in a day. Its actually 2 years and 4 days today and I'm extremely happy that I have someone to count and a shoulder to cry on whenever I feel blue. I am so happy that this man love me as much as I love food or maybe even more ;)
Remember those days that I cried cause I miss you so much? Well I still did, and that's maybe why I would never let you go. Not because I cried everyday because of you but because I could not live without you even for one second. Remember those arguments we use to have? Especially when my brain keep releasing PMS hormone? Even though I hate it but its what made us stronger. Even when we are in this distance, I never stop thinking of you. Every beat of my heart is beating for you. I never love a man as much as I did to you. I could not help thinking how grateful I am having someone like you, you're just so sweet, I couldn't resist squashing your cheek whenever you try to make something silly. Haha. There's only two way that I would love you which is now and forever~ I love you Fayrell Jon Joldin God bless us ^^

And happy 2 years of awesomeness life with me :P

Love,
Sammy

Captain Ball turn ugly~

2011-09-23T04:17:00.000-07:00

Today was unexpected. What a drama.

We were happily having Captain Ball just now which I am really looking forward to since I barely sweat this few weeks. But then it turned out to be a horrible plus disaster moment in my whole entire life. Huh. What am I even thinking? ;(

It started out very well at the first place, until nobody passed me the ball in the beginning of the game, but I tried to ask them to give me but well who wanna give this ugly stupid ego self right? Plus, maybe I'm really sucks in asking for ball but I don't know, maybe its just I'm not that outstanding as the others. ;( And I don't blame them. I blame myself. I'm pathetic. ;(

BOOOOO Sammy!!!

And then when I finally got the ball in my hand there will always be some random guy who tried to catch the ball from me. Like seriously, this time its their faults. The ball is in my hand. And no rule said you can just punch it from me. ITS MINE!!!!! And then one of the guy hit me in the face. I tried to calm down and said that it was just a game even though my face felt like fire. Worst he didn't said sorry. Okay, whatever maybe he's just not that gentleman guy I wish every guy are. Oh well. Again I tried to calm down and tried to relax and I did until another guy punch the ball from my hand and I shouted at him and I made everyone laughed. But to make it worst someone said "Pity him".. Haaaa...Girls and boys if you suddenly heard I'm shouting please, please, please do NOT EVER COMMENT on it. I don't blame her, because its not entirely her faults. When she done pitying him I shouted again and ran away while two of my friends tried to talk with me ;( Truthfully, I'm embarrassed but I just don't know why I turned out to be like that. I wanted to turn down my volume of speech but I just can't. ;( I am really possessed by angered which was the devil of all devil ;( but yes I ran away in tears, I'm sad for letting my anger to control me. I'm actually embarrassed by my action.

When I reached my apartment, I slammed my bedroom door. I just can bear the anger in me. I quickly called my boyfriend and he was quite shocked to hear me crying. So I told him what had just happened and he told me that my action was inappropriate, that I should learned how to control my anger and that it was just a game and it was just a CAPTAIN BALL which to him is like a child play. >< and then he burst into laughter while I'm weeping. LOL. It actually work this time, when he laughed I felt happy again. Haha. And then something struck me Oh shoot..what have I done? Where can I hid this naturally ugly face I have? I'm such a stupid person ;( In the end, I got nothing, I could lost my friends by my action. Fortunately, I had a group of friends who are really forgiving. :) I felt really bad for giving such unpleasant time to them. They must be in shocked seeing me like that. I won't play any Captain ball next time, NEVERRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!! sampai kena bunuh pun tidak!!! Haha. This experienced really traumatised me. God please help me to not let the devil control me. Amen.

p/s: to all my friends who were there during the ugly moment. I am really sorry I acted like a maniac crazy b**ch. I am really sorry fron the bottom of my heart <3

To blow kisses on your cheeks,

~SamNicole~

I really post the next month.

2011-08-30T23:15:00.000-07:00

HAHA. As you can see what the subject of today's post which related to my previous post, amazingly I did post a new entry the next month and today is like the end of the month? HAHA. Today is Peninsular Malaysia's Merdeka day, yeah its 31st of August 2011 :) Happy Merdeka all ^^

Anyhow, all KTT'ians is having their holiday break now which majority of them are going home celebrating Raya and all of fun-thing-they-want-to-do thing and me? What did I do? Oh yeah, I'm stuck in my uncle's apartment here at Kuala Lumpur which is basically everyday my routine is waking up at 11am and watch TV for the rest of the day. And guess what? I'm totally alone. Seriously, I've been like this for 4 days and I doubt that I survived but I guess I did and awesomely I need to survived for another 4 days. Great. So called holiday. Just now I got the thought of going to Midvalley since its a stone throw by bus from my uncle's apartment to go and watch some movies. I planned to watch Cowboy and Aliens but unfortunately I can't since the show time is at 6.45 and my aunty who worked there ( Midvalley) will off duty at 8pm so its impossible for me to finish watching the movie 8pm sharp right? So I shift to Zookeeper and its on 3.45pm so its a great time for me but once again I have no luck because it is fully booked. Al right maybe today I can't go and have fun so I'm thinking of tomorrow. Yes tomorrow I'll watch Zookeeper since I really need a dose of laughter in my vein. I mean it desperately. Seriously. No that was a joke. LOL. I mean if I do post some entry in my blog that would only mean one thing,I'M BORED.

But on top of that I finished reading Sophie Kinsella's novel 'Remember Me' in one whole day! I can't believe it but I eventually did. Non-stop. Hehe. And the novel cost me for a bit of a cashRM35.90. Well, it does have a very nice story. I don't know how Sophie do it but she always made each word amazingly perfect in a sentence. Her story-line is great. Remember me novel tells about the life of a girl who had amnesia due to a car crash and she forget almost 3 years of her life. And as you turn more page you'll find it hard to resist reading till the end. So I'm planning to buy another Sophie's book entitled 'The twenties Girl' which must be good too. So I'm buying it after I get my allowance! Yippiehuu! I will surely post about it later after I finish reading it. Oh yeah, oh yeah..While reading Kinsella's novel I found a new word which is frisson.It means a sudden feeling of excitement or fear, especially when you think that something is about to happen. now You know right? cheers :)

Try reading it :) it worth you every penny.

Till next post, to blow kisses on your cheeks,

-SamNicole-

Sometimes its better to rest~

2011-07-24T06:58:00.000-07:00

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while logging in my blog I just realized that its my 101 post already! Yeah its not that I am happy about it but at least among my friends my blog is the earliest existed in the world of internet. So I must be proud of it which is nothing particularly unique but whatever, the feeling of being number one is always the greatest since I am not always number one in everything except that I am the eldest in my siblings. Whatever. Just for your information which I think most of you already knew, I have been in Kolej Teknologi Timur, Sepang or for short KTT for almost 1 month already which brings the fact of how much I know about the studies and how much I enjoyed being here. First of all, I love my surroundings even though KTT is only one row of shop lots which is not that extravaganza as many would think JPA would sent us. LOL. However, I am quite thankful for what I get here, I have an absolutely great friends here and not even once that I feel like going home except for one time when I'm so lazy to wake up to go to class. Hehe. Yes, KTT is great but I think the stress of all the STRAIGHT A's student are giving me is head&heart-ache. You see, people here is taking either medic or dentistry which is all achieving straight A's in SPM since that is what JPA least requirement for the scholarship. And everyday I feel so stress when I'm the only one that is not studying, not going to the library to revise, wasn't able to complete all my assignments and even listen to my friends mumbling about their housemate or classmate that have done 5 chapters in Biology when we're not even finish chapter 2. I feel so sad thinking that they are way ahead of me in studies sometimes I feel like screaming to them "IF YOU DON'T GET 3A* FOR YOUR CUT OFF POINT, SCREWED YOU!" HAHA. Blame them for giving me all the bad stress. Anyhow, this few days I feel so tired and I don't even have the mood to study since I am to busy with dance practices for the ICS coming this thursday. Oh ya, I forgot to tell that we're going to dance Sumazau and rampaian for BOSS (Borneo Student Society) performing in ICS. Can't wait!! >< and just now after church we went for a little shopping at FOS and I bought my first pink shirt! haha. Yay for me coz its super cute! haha. The T-shirt got a saying said "LOVE AND LAUGH OFTEN" and its super nice^^ coz that is what I'm planning to do for the rest of my life to reduce the bad stress my peers is giving me. LOL. So till next time(maybe next month) that I'll be posting a new entry. Toodles^^

To blow kisses on your cheeks,

~SamNicole~

Here I am

2011-07-04T06:56:00.000-07:00

Here I am onlining in the library of KTT which is not quite big. Just so-so la. Okay. First of all, I intend to do revision of maths here but it turns out to be me doing blogging. Haha. I'm just going to say a few words ^^ so this won't take too long. Anyway, KTT is a urm..kinda a smalllll place for a typical college that you usually see la..Imagine a shoplot with apartment upstairs and u are definetely seeing KTT. haha. I know..first time being here I feel so living in a jungle. HAHA. First of all we are surrounded by jungle, LOL, second of all the shopping mall is too far from here!! There's not even an ATM that can be found here. Like seriously -.- well, this first week kinda burden my budget since the books is all expensive. Luckily,some senior is so generous to just give away their books for free to the juniors (which is me). But overall, I love it here since the people is all nice and playful ^^ I hope I can really enjoy more here as well as study better here than what I did at UTP. 15 cut off point here I come!! Or to be precise 3A's! :D chaiyo2!

Till next post, to blow kisses on ur cheek ^^

~SamNicole~

You're my Bestfriend :)

2011-06-22T04:15:00.000-07:00

Hey readers, I made this video especially for by friends that have been supporting me through out my 17 years of life. This video is actually a response for Abigail's vid..haha..Sa pun mau buat juga bha :P Friends and family, i really mean this song for you guys..Enjoy! :D

New post. NEW POST. New post.

2011-06-20T07:26:00.000-07:00

First of all, sorry with the tittle of this entry. I know its a bit lame..haha You know I don't have anything bombastic for the entry for now, I run out of idea. Hehe. Okay, what is this entry for once again? Alright. Today I'm going back to KL to finish all the stuff on moving out from UTP. Talking bout UTP, I also have to search for a book that I already returned in the IRC to confirm that I did. And now while everybody is happy (or maybe not) with their result for SEM 1, mine is still withheld coz I haven't return the books -.- Whatever. I'm going to prove them wrong! Hehe. I hope I will coz I am so sure that I have returned it :( So, next week is the week for me to start studying at KTT but guess what? Yeah so right, I haven't revise yet -.- I hope my brain still can accept Biology since at UTP I've learned Physics and Chemistry. Its not that hard actually if I really studied like I did at MRSM. Sometimes I feel really sucks because I don't study, do u feel that way too? Well maybe not for them who did. LOL. Actually, I have determine to do better this time. Trust me! I will. Anyway, just wanna share what my best friend Abigail post in her blog which you can visit anytime, just search for her at my "They love to write too" column. ^^ This video is made by herself and I think its really nice of her to dedicate it to all her friends. She is a very good friend indeed. She's my roommate for two years and we're really close to each other. I love my friends so much! Thank you Abigail for giving me the opportunities to Count on you like one,two,three and you'll be there ^^

Enjoy! http://arj-heart-n-brain.blogspot.com/2011/06/h-e-y-h-e-y-this-video-is-dedicated-for.html

Just click the link to see the vid. I'm sure a lot of you will want to do like what she did ^^

Till next time,

To blow kisses on your cheek,

~SamNicole~

Too afraid of the truth~

2011-05-22T09:55:00.001-07:00

So now the time is 12.57am and I'm still not hitting the sack for the sake of blogging and fbing. HAHA. That's my major problems, it called addiction. Every time I turned on my notebook the first thing to do is to log in my fb account. Without hesitation. And I can on-line for 24hours just by dropping comments to my friends walls and stalk somebody interesting. Yess, I stalk too -.- I mean that's why Mark Zuckerberg made FB right? To stalk what your friend are currently doing or maybe I'm just this pathetic girl that have nothing to do unless fulfilling my FB-ing addiction. Cut fb off.

Now, let's talk about something a bit better, I GOT JPA scholarship! I am so freaking happy from head to toe! Haha. Not just because I got the scholarship but because I got my course of my choice. Yess! MEDIC! :D So happy because its not that easy to get JPA scholarship especially for overseas. ^^ fortunately, I'm one of the lucky one. :)

Now, medic is a bit scary. Because a lot of people told me about how a doctor don't have a social life and how they can't have a good holiday even when they have one they are always on hold and can be called any time by the hospital to be there for their patient. Fuh. That's not a bit right? That's biggie. I can't imagine if I am the doctor and I have to tell the family that they have lost their love one's, what should I say to them? Oh man. You know you can always watch it on the television drama like Grey's Anatomy and the family will :(( u know. Fuh. That's hard.

So that's why JPA asked every student who managed to grab a place for the PILN to enter a special course emphasizing on giving us the exposure of the real life of a doctor. Which is 9.00am in the morning. -.- So I better hit the sake or else nobody's going anywhere for her studies later on.

TTFN

To blow kisses on your cheeks,

SamNicole.

STUDY!!

2011-04-04T00:47:00.000-07:00

Matai la saya. I'm dead. LoL. Test is around the corner and I haven't started doing anything yet. Oh man oh man. Even now I'm busy with the multi-modal-presentation for English tutorial tomorrow and I don't even bother to look at my own scriptwriting of our 30 minutes drama that is coming next week >< I'm so busyyyy! yeah busy woman but yet has a boring life. LOL

Anyway, have I ever told you about my physics tutorial? OMG. I hate it. Well, in university tutorial is like a tuition where all the students need to attend and present for a minimum 3 times. And to tell the truth after having like 3 months of tutorial I never ever present infront of everybody. Yeah, since the tutorial question is somehow out of my capability (haha). But then since out of 5% from the maximum percentage I should get for this physics tutorial I only got 1.03% -.- haha. Since I escape class a few times and never ever present a single question infront of all my tutorial mates I suppose 1.03% is what I should get. Haha. So yeah, today I woke up early (kunun) having the determination to prove all those geniuses in my engineering group that I'm going to shine infront today. LOL. Well, of course that's not going to happen. I was planning to do a very easy Chapter 9: Fluids question but then didn't manage to since its easy and a lot of us wanted to do that particular question. So I wait for question number 4..haha..and planning to do question a) while my bestfriend Rozen Revilene do question b). But! Oh no! the girl infront hurriedly took the marker pen and took my QUESTION! NOO! Of course my determination is still high enough to steal the 4b) question. haha. So I did it! yeah! ahahaha. What is funny is that our tutor ask me several question about the equation of bernoulli's and of course my jaw just fall down without a word to say other than "Ermmm...ahhhhhh" LOL. Anddddddd I think I was so nervous that I frequently put numbers on my calculator and tried repeatedly doing the same thing as my answers is always wrong!!!! So embarrassed I tried to cover up with a smile on my face. Haha. Then after like almost a while there doing simple mathematics the tutor said "That's enough Samantha. Its all just mathematics" Arghhh! I felt like all the blood in my body is rushing to all over my face. Haha. Anyhow, at least I've tried and did my very best! STUDY! In just a few weeks we'll be facing our big exams...big turtle exams...and of course SEM break!!!Still thinking of what I should do. But till then, I'll post another entry a little laterrrr :D

To blow kisses on your cheeks,
Samnicole ;)

Nothing but happy :D

2011-03-27T01:30:00.000-07:00

Heyyy yaaaa,

Drummer please.. (sound effect)

My freaking spm result is out! LOL. haha. Well yeah, I can actually be proud of it..because yeah finally I get straight A's! After almost 12years of studying I can finally breathe normally! All the hard work paid off. All the stress, home works, additional classes, scolds from the teachers are really one of the reason of my real achievement. Yeah, really :D Not forgeting my friends who also got super fabulous result that are always supportive and will always help me in anything that I could ask for. Thank you girls! :D

I'm so proud that I have best friends like Abigail Renee Johnli (6A+,2A,1A-), Ottey Joyner Peter Baga (7A 2B), Lilyan Rosa (3A+,6A,1A-) and last but not least Joanne Seanindak (6A+,3A,1A-) You girls did your very best :) and I really hope the future brings more blessings to all of you :)
Not forgetting my roomates, Michelle Cyrill and Stephanie James you both also did the best! Don't stop working hard and don't stop dreaming about those dream you guys told me :) And darling Fayrell Jon I love you no matter what :)) Your result is great for me, just don't stop believing in yourself okay? And try your very best to get dean's list or even 3.00 pointer in UTM. Don't forget our deal. Hehe^^
And this goes the same to all of my friends and also to you readers ^^

Nothing comes easy in this world, you need to kick your a** to grab those oppurtunity since life can never be repeated once you regret your decisions.

Thank you God for this blessings. And thank you mum and dad for always being my number one inspiration. LOVE YOU ALL ^^

Lets just now we move on, and try our very best to apply as many scholarships out there.

Just go to this link and you'll be dizzy which scholarship to choose. Ha ha.

http://afterschool.my/scholarship/

GOOD LUCK READERS/FRIENDS :)

TTFN

TIRING DAYS AND NIGHTS~

2011-02-25T08:22:00.001-08:00

Its 12am and the clock keeps ticking. Its not like I'm not tired at all, I am tired but I just feel like super boring right now, so I decided to go surf the Internet.

Do you know what I first check when I switch the start button on the laptop? GMAIL! he he. For God's sake, GMail is very very important to me because everyone will use Gmail here in UTP. I also don't know why but I guess it was because of the speed of checking gmail compare to checking your yahoo mail. LOL. Yahoo is SO slow here. In fact, the internet isn't that fast at all! -.- Even though I don't have my own laptop yet but I still can borrow my friend's laptop to go search something in the Internet or just wanna do some business or just wanted to spit something out sarcastically (Of course, I mean here, in the blog) . Haha.

Anyway, ya, Its been so long since I last wrote my last post. So just wanna let you guys know that I'm in University Teknologi Petronas now, which is in Tronoh, Perak. Tronoh is a rural area where you will seldomly see high buildings or big shopping mall or anything else except Tesco or Juso. So yeahh, less entertainment here guys. Haha. Even in Ipoh you will feel like you're in the area of Segama, Sabah only but of course I'm still okay with it because less entertainment means less craziness. If you know what I mean. Haha. I like it better if my University area is kind of rural ^^

My problem here is not because I can't study, I'm lazy, my schedule is too packed or whatever else it could be. Its just that I always miss home and my friends a lot ;( Home is specifically my family. I really miss them ;( Especially when I had a bad arguement with 'him' my day will be so upset and dull, so usually when im sad i don't pay attention to what the lecturers are talking about. I'm not always on the go. I'm not happy. I don't have the spirit to do my very best for the semester. I mean like I'm nothing when Im in an arguement with him. But you know what, when I think sit down or lying on the bed reflecting about what would my parents feel about me neglecting studies will always pull me back into reality. I mean like I have a scholarship, I have high hopes from everyone, and I have the full power to determine what my future would be which will start where i am right now, in university. So why would I ignore this oppurtunity? YES! I should just grab it and seize the day! Carpe Diem! :D

What a boring life I had right now. Haha. Nothing is interisting or whatever here. Sometimes i feel bad about myself, I feel insecure with myself. But u know what everyone has their own problems, and they have their own ways on how to solve it. So i should get going right now! Get a lot of sleep! go swim tomorrow morning. hehe. and then study and then study, eat lots and lots of chocolate, contact friends and family anndddddd urmmm..urmmm..go to church..and then urm...urmmm...sleep...haha...yeah i know its boring, but it is my day. And my day will always be wonderful because God had given me such life :) GBUs.

TTFN! (Ta-ta For Now)

To blow kisses on your cheeks, SamNicole

I don't know.

2010-09-17T01:06:00.000-07:00

I don't know. I really don't. Does telling the truth means that u had to suffer for the rest of ur life? So is that suppose to mean that keeping secret is better? I don't know. Why just i had to suffer this kind of stupid drama? oh..come on..i know everyone has one drama in life at least. Its just that i don't get it how life really meant for me. All i want is a family. That's all. Just a happy family. Can't I have that?

Everything just sucks too much over this few weeks. :'(

Life's does sucks sometimes..

2010-09-13T21:50:00.000-07:00

That's all I got to say. LIFE SUCKS when it didn't come in your way and it didn't make you happy at all. I just need some positive vibe or anything to not kill myself for this major LIFE PROBLEMS! Hah... :(

Never let me go~

2010-06-08T17:27:00.000-07:00

Hello! So, its been a while that I almost forgot that I've got a blog. Hey that's kinda rhyme. LOL.

Ok, so I had just came back from my college yesterday and was just about to start my holiday with tons of homework! =.=' creepy I know. We (form 5 and form 3 students) was very lucky that we got into a camp that is so called "Kem Kecemerlangan" and has to stay back like for almost 5 days in school while everybody else is having their vacation.. =.=" well, basically we had a lecture about how to get A+ in all subjects, they teach us the correct format and how to study smart. Frankly, I'm not really into this camp because I'm super pack with stress because of the semester exam thing and I just need a break! Yeah, talking bout exam I just can't wait to see my PNG! And everybody else's. Hope its gonna be good (finger crossed) :] and my english is BADDDDD... ;-( funny that I can't wait to get back to school again :'(

Anyhow, on Monday night, we were like a group of teens with blankets and pillow being so bold wanting to watch Phobia 5. Yes, its a ghost story. LOL. Kinda. Its actually a movie with a lot of stories and I only watched the last one. The funny one. Haha. We were like screaming with Beyonce's amplitude. Lol.

Okay, now I don't know what to write, just wanna say I miss my bestfriend Bo Tiza sooo muchh!! :'( my lil nate like crazy! And him like insane! :'( hope u guys feel the same thing that I feel now.

Never let me go,

Sammy <3>

Maybe I just LOVE u damn much..

2010-03-20T04:08:00.000-07:00

I don't know.
I don't know why I pissed everytime you treat me like one of your friend.
I'm not. I'm more than that!
:'(
I miss you. I always, secretly, check your photo albums in FB or FS just to see your face. Even if its just for a second.
Why did you like to hurt me?!! :'(
Why did you like to make me sad?!! :'(
Why did you always like to solve your problems your own way?!! :'(
And why on earth I can't help you?!! :'(
WHY?!
Maybe you don't love me. Ahaa. Yeap. U don't.
Because if you do, you'll let me come into your life.
But you don't. If you were on like stress or something you just let me alone. Leave me like I'm nobody. Maybe I am huh?
Maybe I should just cry and forgive you?
Or
Maybe I should just try simply and leave you?
Or
Maybe I just LOVE you damn much..
:'(

Holiday break!!!! :)

2010-03-16T02:04:00.000-07:00

OH Yeahh!! :) Lol. I'm back!
Being more darker and cute-er i guess. Haha xD
Nothing much to say
.
I need to study! My test is next week! Phew. I won't let 'my gumuk' win! haha
P/s: I LOVE FAYRELL JON JOLDIN! :) verry much! Belajar kama ah!

HER~

2010-01-01T21:25:00.000-08:00

I didn't know her name, I didn't know her face, I didn't know anything bout her.
But because of her, I used to get my heart broken. Because of her, I shed a tear.
Why must she involve in our relationship? Why?! Why can't you just let her go? Why can't you just be friends with her? Why can't you just stop hitting my chest with a knife? Why?!
It's not like I hate her for making me sad, but It's you darl..You just like ugh..You always make me confused!!! ALWAYSSSS!!! :'(
But I will tell you one thing, yes I love you but I love you enough to let you go.
So, if you really want to be with her. Go ahead! I'm okay with it.

Don't lie.

2009-12-29T05:34:00.000-08:00

Home. Home. Home.
LoL.
Ugh. I forgot to add 'work' there..
Homework. Homework. Homework.
Sigh*
Everyday feels like yesterday but I'm sure gonna miss my beloved village Tuaran. :)
Anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!! :D

Goodbye Blogger! :D

2009-12-17T20:32:00.000-08:00

GOING TO BELOVED VILLAGE, TUARAN, TILL CHRISTMAS!

:D

-TTFN-

She is my worst enemy.

2009-12-16T07:32:00.000-08:00

White. Its beautiful. Its the colour of innocence. Its the colour of tranquility.
:]
Strangers : Sam, what would you wanted to be in the future? I bet it must be big aite? :)
Me : Urh. Well, for this time being I don't really know what I wanted to be in the future. I'm still searching though. Why?
Strangers : Not even anything? Oh ok. Just asking.
Yes, its true I neither have ambition nor dream. Its funny how I say I don't dream. LoL. I'm not sure myself either. I envy those people who had so much passion in something that they believe they can be someday, how I envy those people who had dream beyond this world, how I just envy that they had every reason for what they are doing now. While I'm stuck in this drama that I've made myself. What-is-ur-dream-job kind of drama. It made me laughed at myself somehow, how this girl from MRSM didn't even had the subtle hint about what she wanted to be. How pathetic this girl who everyone's know had this huge vision of life but didn't even know what she wanted to be in future. But I ought to search until I find something that I like..something that I love to do every single day. So, don't judge me as I might judge you too. I'm already depressed with this drama & I don't need you to add any more burden on me. Why can't you just stop asking me this question? Why?! I'm into doctor but I'm afraid of pain and seeing pain. I'm into engineering but I'm not good at it. I'm into artist but people laughed at me doing anything that I think creative but apparently they don't think so. I don't even think I'm good at something. It hurts real bad, to know that I don't have dream, to know that I don't have a dream job whatsoever it called, it just painful. I hate myself. I hate 'you' who often make me down. I hate that I don't have big dreams.
Why is this so hard for me you asked?
Because I don't have passion.
Because if I have passion I don't believe at it.
Strangers: Sam, we all still had a long journey. Be strong and you will see what you really want someday. Maybe you should try doctor.
Me: LoL strangers. Take it like this, if I want to be a doctor..what specific doctor would I be? Hurh? I failed Bio okay! :'(
Strangers: No Sam, be positive. Stop complaining! Just do your best in everything! You'll see the light someday. The light which will get you nearer to your dream job. C'mon Sam! You are a dreamer. Its just that, you are confused. Now, get off your butt from the bed and start searching from now on!
I'm searching. I'll try doctor. Well, IDK what doctor but I'll search.
I'm sad but happy. I'm confused but ohh..still confused.
I promise I'll find my dream job.
Cross my heart.
~SamNicoLe~
p/s: You=myself

Ohana <3

2009-12-15T05:05:00.000-08:00

Ohana means family and family means no one get left behind. <3
This is why I love them so much.
:)

We looked fierce didn't us? haha xD
My mum and dad <3

Love this pic! :D

My family. With grandparents included. Haha xD

She's sure look more matured here right? Hehe^^

My lil sis. Yes, this is when she's still like 10 years old or something. Hehe.

My annoying lil bro. Haha.

Siblings :]

Eat! Eat! Eat! Hehe^^
From my mum's side. Don't we all look kinda indian? haha xD
I LOVE MY FAMILY!
(=

Through anything you can count on me :)

2009-12-14T08:51:00.000-08:00

Something about you is so addictive.

:]

All I wanna do is be with you. There's nothing we can't do. Just wanna be with you..no matter where life takes us nothing can break us apart, u know its true <3

LALALALA~

IDK IDK IDK. Why I love you? I always asked that question to myself. IDK IDK IDK. Falling in love was like getting struck by lighting *FREEZE* and next thing you know, your heart beats faster and you have this tingling sensation every time you saw him, every time you set your eyes on him. Butterflies in your stomach, sweaty palm and pinked cheek. Haha xD

Maybe its just an infatuation not love. Maybe its just lust and not love. Maybe its just crush and not love or maybe its all infatuation, lust, crush and Love after all. It could be. Ugh. This is confusing.

=.='

But I know for sure its a very deep fondness. Haha. What does that suppose to mean now? Can anybody tell? LOL.

i miss you , i miss your smile.

Ugh. gotta stop being all so 'jiwang'. Haha.

Okay. Today was kinda bored. It was just a typical boring day. Nothing much to do. So nothing much to say. LOL.

Oh oh oh!

This Friday we will be back to my beloved kampung Tuaran!!! Yeppie!! So no more blogging for a couple of days for me. I don't care. Haha. Spending time at my village is worth it than being in absolute boredom at home. LoL. I can't wait! I can't wait! I can't wait! But...I have to finish my homework before we go back there..darnn..
HELP ME! HELP ME!

I can't seem to bother any of the homework. Seriously, all my books is having their own spider webs now. Haha. I just don't feel like studying yet. Just NOT YET!

:'(

I just want more holiday..more..more..more..and more!!! Ugh. Who made these 24hour systems anyway? LOL. Genius-es I guess. Hehe. Ohh..I just got my result today..it was kinda okay.. My PNG was 3.31. Not bad but I really need to brush up those freaking hard science subject and add maths of course. Hehe^^ I'm not shocked that I got C+ for PJK. LoL. Frankly, I didn't read PJK coz who will read them anyway? Ok fine. I know the nerdy and those hardworking students will do. Hoho. I think I just gave an excuse didn't I? Aahh..Forget it. So, I'm in Delima next year. Urm. Would it be bad or good? We will see. For sure, my classmate is all keee-rayyyy-zeee! Trust me. They are. Haha.

For now I leave it untold. I want something gold.

Can I?

No...!

Why???!!!

Cannot laaa!!

Yerr...why why why??!!

Because gold is for achievers not some kind of dumbass like you!!

How cruel!! I'm no dumbass!!

Yes you are. Just admit it sweetheart.. :P

Okay..I am dumbass..but you'll be my ass.. xD

Then who will be my butt then?

hahahaha! sorry guys..those was unplanned. Haha. It was me talking to someone or myself? LoL. Get the humour peeps. hehe^^

TTFN!

History. Sometimes it just made me laugh :D

2009-12-14T04:07:00.000-08:00

Today I've found my little pink diary which I had since 2002 and I still keep it till now. It was my Christmas present from my parents. I still remember how happy I am unwrapping my Christmas present that year. Haha. And since that, I started to write a diary. So, I was reading the diary from page to page, laughing like crazy. LOL. I realize how childish and young I am that time. It was like reading a 10 years old kid's diary. Well, I am once a kid okay. Haha. What's pretty obvious is every page of it was a MAN/GUY/BOY's subject, LOL, I mean I wasted every ink of my pen just to write about them??!! Haha. I'm sure every girls diary was like mine too. Right girls? :D I don't really care if anyone reads it now. I just wanna share it though. So here is some of what I've wrote..some that is very hillarious, ridiculious, and damn funny. Watch out readers!! XD Coz what you gonna read is something pure-sabahan and childish. Hehe^^

05 Feb 2003
Saya menjadi kawan karib sama si Daniel/Gundul saya rasakan macam dia cinta saya tapi mungkin dia tidak boleh cakap dengan saya.

07 May 2003 (Wed)
Masa tu kami pergi pulang sudah tahun 6 belum lagi balik jadi kami singgahlah sana tempat pokok wani kami naik itu pokok berramairamai tiba-tiba dorang si gundul teriak woi pencurikah dia bilang. benci saya juga sebab diatu tidak pandai percaya yang kami tidak ambil itu wani pun dia cakap juga kami ambil itu wani memanglah begitu sikap dia itu sejak dia tinggal tempat cikgu walter.

Haha. I told you not to laugh! FYI, wani is something like Mango if I'm not mistaken. Hehe^^ Here's more...

22 June 2003
Saya malas betul oh...... Si Daniel kan kurang ajar betul mau tahu dia nampak saya punya rambut terbang2 terus punya main ketawa dia macam pontianak rambut saya tidak pandai berhenti lagi tu dia ketawa terus dia bilang lagi eh.....geli saya macam rambut pontianak dia bilang.

LoL. I think I can share just a tiny bit of it. mana bulih banyak2! Haha. I will just keep the rest to myself. Hehe^^ But hey, I did share right? ;D

TTFN.

Hey, you look great :)

2009-12-12T09:38:00.000-08:00

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I just love these. ;)

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Well, maybe next year..or the other year..or the other-other year. Hehe^^

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I would like to dedicate this to my dear friend, Tash. :) Well, you know why right? Tash? Right. :D

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So true. LOL

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Pure awesome-ness. I need a moment :'( Haha. No I'm not.

Well, how do u like it?? Tehee^^

Till then. TTFN!

Hillarious~

2009-12-12T09:11:00.000-08:00
So, I was just surfing the net and found pics that is very very ridicilious and so damn funny! Haha. Here goes nothing~

:)

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Haha. I bet Santa must be On strike reading this. :D

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LOL LOL. Coward :p

Do you have a new MySpace 2.0 Layout yet?

OMG! Who made this? Oh I'm sure buying this and stuff some of my fav food
in and let's see who brave enough to steal it. Haha.

Get more funny things and MySpace Graphics

LOL LOL LOL LMAO! Wth?! Haha. I'm sure dead if I landed on those creepy creature. Yiakes!

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OMG! LMAO LMAO! xD

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Whattt thhheeee??????!!!! OMG!!!

Looking for more funny pictures?

Okayyyyyy.....If you got what I mean. hahaa. xD

TTFN!

T.R.O.U.B.L.E

2009-12-11T13:16:00.000-08:00
Huh :'(

Last night, 11th December 2009, my parents decided to sent us to our Taek-Won-Do practice which I'm usually excited about but seems like its getting more a turn off with me. Shoot. What's wrong with me?

Another Huh :'(

Then, well, I obviously can't do anything with it so I just get in the car and try to be happy that I'm going to my Taek-Won-Do class. Its just that, I don't have the mood okay? Maybe I'm scared with all the crucial exercise and work out and all the kickings here and there because I'm not that fit like before. And to cap it all, I only eat some MAGGIE that afternoon. Yeah ok my fault. But I know next year I'm going to be one of the seniors and get a chance to fly again to represent MRSM KK in Taek-Won-Do, So yeah..I have to do what I have to do.

So we got there like 6.40pm and it haven't started yet and that's when I realize that tonight's gonna be a nightmare. I have that instinct you-gonna-get-in-big-trouble kinda of thing. Like yeah =.=" We started then by warming up where we had to run or I should say jog all around the building in about 3 times. Of course, I'm still okay with that. The building wasn't that big anyway.

Until....

We got all lined up and we had to do some jogs, kickings for about several sets. Well, those several sets was excruciating! I still remember I'm gasping for air and I'm not breathing normally. My heart was pounding and I thought I'm dead already. What is not okay for me is, all my friend was happily laughing around and yet still having a conversation and seems like they're okay with all the jog and kickings stuff while I'm in absolute near-to-death mode. That time it hit me and I know I'm not okay. I'm sweating like a guinea pig, for real! When my couch was into some more sets of jogs and kickings I was like "Okay, I'm done!" So I asked for excuse from my couch to go to the nearest toilet which I don't even know where that very severe minute.

Sighed*

When I walked to the nearest toilet, yes it is near, I felt like I wanna puke and I have this earache(the one that we usually get when we're flying high in the sky), and I mean serious earache. I thought I almost faint in the middle of my walk to the toilet. The toilet seems so far away..I can only see lights from now on. And practically, the lights is getting dull and more dull as I get nearer the light. And the lights went off just like that as I reached it.

Huh :'(

Now I'm totally in my own world. All the flashback from my past was running in my head and all the memories I had with my family & friends is one by one displayed. I felt like I'm not touching the ground. My feet wasn't there. Yet. What I remember next is my eyes hurt so bad because it had been soaked up by my tiny droplets of sweat. And guess what? I'm totally laying on the toilet's floor! OMG! I can't even remember how I get there. Geez. This is bad I thought, my Taek-Won-Do uniform is obviously white and I'm sure my mum gonna kick my ass as soon as she know I'm laying in all-so-filthy floor of the toilet.

Whatever.

I immediately arose and look up for myself in that giant mirror they had in the toilet. All I can say is GOSH! I can't believe I'm even human! I look like a vampire. Seriously, I do. What I saw is this girl about 16th, not looking like herself, an absolute idiot, and looking white as her uniform can be. I'm pale. So, I wash my face and try to look like human. I don't even know how to get out of there with even looking partially human. As I get out of there, my lil sis and a friend of mine was running to the toilet. They must have been worried bout me. Thanks guys :) Anyhow, I tried to smile like nothing had happen. My friend hold my hand and say "Gosh, your hand is cold. Get some rest sweetheart. You are okay right?"
"Yes I am" Sam say. When we got at the practice area, they had finish doing all sets of jogs and kickings so I thought I must be quite awhile in that toilet. And everyone was looking at me. Shame on me. I know.

....Huhh :'(

So then I'm doing absolutely nothing after that incident of quite a drama I guess. I just sit there and still had this weird earache and headache while watching them doing free-sparring. :'( How I wish this wouldn't have to happen. Suddenly, I missed my Taek-Won-Do moment with them. And suddenly, I realize how much we all had grown up together. Laugh together. Enjoy together and even share some tears together. How my friend Benji is before shorter than me and now is wayyyy taller than me. How my friend Ayui is before so shy with me now wayyyy too annoying to me. How silly :) I guess we all had develop a very strong and concrete I must say friendship. Well, I'm emotionally touched by that fact somehow.

I miss them. I miss us. :'(

As I seat there, I got a text from him. Just an ordinary "Hi!" kinda of text. So I told him I'm sad and he asked me why so I told him again about my near-to-death experience. Haha. Hiperbola much. I know. But it turns out to be more aggravating. Shoot. He was like "Come on! Its not like you can't come to your Taek-Won-Do practice again." But I want you to know that time I need you to say just a very simple word of concern "Are you okay Sam? I'm always here for you just so you know". Not that complaint of yours and excuses of course. So I said, "I know its useless to tell you bout this. Its okay, I can deal with this problems myself. Gtg"

Arghhh!!!!!! :'(

And he didn't even try to coax me up and try to make things a bit better. At least. I'm totally upset about that. Okay, maybe he was too busy I guess. So, I'm totally not in a good mood that night. I looked like a monster ready to fight with all her preys. Seriously, I was like shouting with my siblings for something that they didn't well at least not intentionally commit. Whatever. I'm angry and selfish. So what?! Feeling not good if I didn't try to text him I reached my phone and say "I'm sorry for being such inconsiderate person. Am totally worn out :'(" And this is what I laughed about "Oh okay. Its okay. I'm fine with it just now I'm so sleepy because of the medicine side effect so I'm going to sleep now. Take care. Daa" I mean..daaaaa????!!! Gosh. Seems like he don't even care now. Not even the word he used to say to me. Not even a bit. So I'm sad! I'm really, really, really, really really, really, sadddd!!! :'( Its not about he didn't understand me but he never really asked what's wrong with me. And I guess he just let me sink in this sinful world. Well, enough already. I learned that what I really need is myself and don't give a damn about any trouble I had.

Just relax Sam. You need to cool down. Fuhhh.. :'(

But still I am sad. Does he really didn't even care bout me? Huh.

The whole day I haven't say this three little magical word to him..so I wanna say it right here..and I really do mean it..

I LOVE YOU.

Love.Love.Love

2009-12-09T11:00:00.000-08:00

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I love you like it just happened yesterday.

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All I want for Christmas...

2009-12-09T10:13:00.000-08:00

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Hehe^^ I mean..Hoho.. Lol. I can't wait for christmas! I can already smell the Christmas spirit from every Christian. Everyone is just busy picking decorations for their homes and buying new clothes no matter what age they are in. I am too. Hehe^^ Yeah..My aunt from Penang will come to Sabah on 20th Nov and of course with my new cute little cousin, Nubhan. He's like 8 months old and he's so adorable! This time I'm sure christmas will be much memorable..I'm absolutely sure. And of course, everyone have their own wishes on Christmas..so am I..frankly, I want a lot of things. [Hey, who wouldn't?] One thing for sure..I want to walk out from MARESMA with tears of joy. I want to do my best in SPM next year and get flying colours, I'll be happier if I get any scholarship to study OVERSEA or locally[it doesn't matter]. I want to make my parents proud of me. I want to earn my own money. But all I want for Christmas is US..I mean KITA. I want US because I adore US :) I am sure everyone who read my blog is either my friend or family friend. Us means a lot to me..without us I'm not sure if I can even stand on my ground now. I would fall and shattered into pieces. I'm no kidding. I'm fragile and I'm very fragile and very very very fragile..once you break it, considered sold! Lol. Just kidding. But I am easily get hurt or easily touched..I would cry for like insane and ridiculous love story? I would cry if you cry? I would cry if you make fun of me even if its just a joke? I would cry if you say "Come on. Don't cry". Well, that's just typical Sammy. A tough girl with a fragile heart and for sure very vulnerable girl. LoL. Whatever it is, Christmas is about family and family means no one get left behind. :) I think I have a bunch of family. I mean, now I have family in Taek-Won-Do, in MRSM itself, in my ex-school SMKL and of course from any relationship I have built with my friend included special one. Hehe^^ But if only I get one wishes for Christmas, I would say.. "I WANT TO EAT A LOT OF DURIAN!" hahaha! xD

TTFN.

I better get started~

2009-12-08T23:40:00.000-08:00

I need some help :'( Bila lah mau siap homework ni?!!! x(

Sleeping disorder :'(

2009-12-07T11:47:00.001-08:00

I don't know why But I just can't sleep! Huhu. I'm so upset with it! Look at the time now, its 3:48am. Gosh. How pathetic. =.=' This few weeks really had worn me out. Not like I'm into somethings that needed physicality but I just can't sleep. Mannnn..This is sure making me sad.. :'(
I really miss him. I miss him so badly. I just can't stop missing him. Huhu. I wish he was here with me. To hold me tight and say its okay. To pamper me and say its alright. How I wish he was really here. But looks like it is all just a wish. And wishes is just wishes. There are all words that will never come true :'( pathetic much. I just need someone. I really need someone right now. I really need to talk with someone. Like face to face. But no one come for me. Whatsoever. I'm such a drama-queen. I know. I'll sleep at 4:00am. I sware. Huhu.
What I feel now is I'm cold. I miss him. I need him. And I really need some sleep! Wish I could eat one whole bottle of medicine that will surely knock me down. Huh. I'm so depressed. Insomnia is one thing but homework is what really makes me GILA! And I am getting crazy and crazier bout it. I tried to do some of it and yeah I did some of the addmaths question. Kinda hard but not really. It was great that I've started until I felt so sleepy. Gosh~ Again. It's so pathetic. Harsh~ Ugh. I think enough of me talking crap here. Coz its 4:03am and I need some sleep! :'(

TTFN! Hope I could wake up early. LoL.

Confused~

2009-11-22T21:27:00.000-08:00

Is this what I really want? I'm not sure myself either. Sometimes I just want to let go everything but I'm afraid of feeling pain. But I guess No pain, No gain. That's what they say. What if it turns out to be my biggest mistake? I don't dare to take risk. But if I guess I should just try. Who knows it might be a stroke of luck. Umph. Holiday was kinda bored. I don't have nothing to do except posting stuff in my blog (obviously =.='), sit around like a fool, and texting all day long. Man. How pathetic. Lol. Anyway, I'm looking forward to go to Donnovan's and Pamela's birthday bash on this 27th. Wot wot! Its gonna be a blast. Ekeke. Furthermore, my BFF Bo will come too. GREAT! Haha. But still I didn't know what to wear. The theme is obviously Hawaiian but I can't imagine what to wear. Still, I haven't bought anything yet for Donn. Shoot. I'm not really good in giving stuff or present especially for men. You can really see it cause I'm thinking of giving:

Tie? Lol.
Pen?
Keychain?

Can anybody help me? I'm glad if someone could just give me an opinion bout what to give. I'll appreciate it. So, what's next? Oh, I haven't told you that I can play the guitar allready right? LoL. I'm not that good but its kinda okay. Ok gtg now, till next time! toodles! =)

This was from my FS blog. Enjoy! =)

2009-11-21T17:49:00.000-08:00

Well, yes…it has been a while..haha! Actly Ive got a blog at google od so i kinda neglect my fs blog. hehe. but idk y i suddenly think bout posting sumthing good to read..kunun La..xD..Ok..wat’s good ah? O ya! bout MRSM..now Im one of the student there..talking bout interesting makes me wanna told ya bout my first day of schooling there..

That day, 23rd March 2009..I remember I woke up so early bcoz I was so excited that I’m going to transfer to MRSM..perhaps a lil bit anxiety that time..Ive got millions things going through my mind such as how am gonna live there, how r the peeps there n how am gonna study there..well, that’s just a bit of it..hehe..So, we went to my ex-school that is SMK Limbanak, Penampang to take my surat lepas n gave away my textbook back..When I arrived, I have to wait like 2 hours or sumthing bcoz the assembly is still on..Feeling kinda bored, I met my lil sis angkat Natalia just at our school’s garden..hehe..So, we talk n talk n talk n talk n talk..we talk alot la yg penting..ekeke..When the assembly had done I said goodbye to all my friends..they were like “Sam bye! jan lupa kami ah!” ekeke. those were the days. Later, I hugged n kissed my BFF Bo Tiza..she was like ” Sam ko jan lupa sa ah! Bestfriend forever kio! chat kita d fb! fs n blogg! I’m so gonna miss u sam!” It was touching but I had to act like its okay. Then I go gave my textbook back, but WTH?! i forgot my terminal tiga novel. I’m so screwed i thought. Lol. Fortunately, my teacher weren’t mad at me infact she said “Its ok la..nanti ko suru parents ko kc balik la k..yg penting msti kc balik!” n me “ya2! sa janji sigu..hehe” Glad that was over and then me n easther(she was transfering to MRSM koki too) came into the class n said goodbye again to every1. Huhu. What’s funny is our MR.BURN like still blurring about our presence there. He was funny you know! BUt This time I can feel the sadness in my heart but i don’t showed it. Hehe. N i know, some1 had cried for me for leaving that school so I decide to act cool. Lol. When the truth is I’m crying inside of me. huhu. I’m so good in this drama thingy. Lol. We finally went to MRSM after I said goodbye to my uncle sekuriti..hehe..we r kinda close bh..he’s a good man and he was like my 2nd father in SMK Limbanak. So we went there after stopping by at a restaurant bcoz my dad said he was hungry. Very good dad. Lol. As my dad drive along the road to MRSM KK, I felt like “STOP! I DON’T WANNA TRANSFER TO MRSM!”..but my tongue wasn’t moving..I wanna cry but my eyes won’t do it..I just feel like I’m losing everything that I had in SMKL..still, i didn’t turn back..Glad that I didn’t..tehee~

My heart skip a bit as I walk in MRSM KK. Wow I thought. I was really actually here. For I don’t know the reason why I’m glad I was there. The registration was kinda scary n weird..I was so quiet and look so innocent bcoz my image was this fierce Prefect with all her hair going up in a ponytail. Yeah rite Sam. Haha. Maybe I was pretty ’skema’ that time. Lol. Whatever. I still remember I met my mama homeroom Cigu Yan hehe..she look so scary that time..I don’t even know how to say a word to her..lol..that’s the truth..It was kinda weird too bcoz I wore my green coat n skirt while every1 is wearing baju kurung..then..bla2..i did random stuff as a new student would do..hehe..Now, I’m heading to the dorm..As I walk to the dorm, I heard some1 is calling my name..Oh! That’s donn I thought. Lol. What is he doing up therE? haha. So i just gave a wave and say “Donn..donn” haha. He was kinda like happy i guess. Too happy. Lol. Then, we walk to the dorm..i thought JAUUUUHHHHH la betul..haha..tau2 it was a stone throw only..adeh..haha..but first i thought the dorm was quite creepy..it was dark and when i walk in my room i thought “MANNNNNN! I’m not going to believe i’ll sleep here!!” I was screaming. And the locker was a sigh* it was just ugly..not like ugly..ugly..but..its ugly becoz all the “F” word was written there..again i thought “Y MY LOCKER??!! YYY??!!” again that i scream. haha. It was funny to think back bout my reaction when I first got there. LMAO. haha. But I ought to act cool, to act like its okay..infront of everybody..its the truth that I’m being hypocrite that day..sorry but i guess that’s normal ba kan? ehehe. After that, we went to the store to buy stuff and tailor to make me a baju kurung. At 2 something I went back to MRSM..wot..wot..its the real thing now sammy, i thought..so, my parents n siblings help me to put my stuff in my locker..as i open my room’s door GOSH! The gurls r really sexy..haha..nasib my dad didn’t go in..nasib2..lol..so, that’s how it starts, i first met helsie, meelady(anne), michie and pony..where mich n pon is my roomate..what’s weird is, peeps can’t stop coming from our room..n what’s pretty ‘kLAusner’(my another weird word..ehehe) is..peeps knew my name! wow. it was a total curiousity(dnt know how to spell.sorry.hehe) for me. biarla i thought. Then, i met another new stud name Abigail..nice name i thought..n when helsie came in again she thought we were twins..lol..we look alike kunun..umph bha..n oya! i still remember when we were going to DS(Dewan Selera) wer we went to eat, my friend Joy’s phone was ringing n she answered it in the middle of our walk to DS!!!!! Gila. Haha. And again, I got kuyak by Cyrill form 5 bcoz he said “Samantha! u can wear that going in the DS” n i was like “WHAAATTT??!! what’s wrong wf my uniform? Durh~” he reply “tia mo pcaya suda la..huh” so, afraid of breaking the rule i didn’t go in..haha.so all of us xjadi going to eat. all bcoz of me. damn. lol. then an announcement were made for us for we have a tit bit bout mrsm kk at dewan kuliah at 8.30pm..wearing casual wear..then bla..bla..bla..can’t recall..but i did recall going to our class!!! jeng3..first of all, i didn’t like it..haha..they were scary..and everyone wants to meet me..durh~ what for?! to criticize i guess. haha. typical. but im happy meeting donn and hammka that time..it feels like home for a while..lol..and yeah..that night it was raining..and i still remember me n easther wore the same red shirt..hehe..we were still limbanakians that time..lol..then that’s pretty much of it..i can’t sleep bcoz im homesick and i only sleep after i cried..haha..that’s all..

Well, now I’m more confident and hardworking that I never thought I will be. N I change my image..no more ’skema’ gurl..im more to a happy-go-lucky gurl..with my bangs down and my curly hair in a ponytail..im pretty much become more matured since I transfered there..N there, I learned to let go..it was the hardest thing one have to do..but I did it..

P/s: To that special someone thanks for making my eyes open n my minds wider. Bcoz of you I learned to let go, bcoz of you I learned to be strong, n bcoz of you I never will go easy again. Thanks to you, I’m ready to open my hearts for another man. But finally thanks to you, I am what I am today. THANKS SO MUCHHHHHHH!! x)

Thanks 4 reading every1.. ;))

Balik..balik...balik!! olidaeee! xD

2009-11-20T05:45:00.000-08:00

Yeahh..im home od..but a lil bit sad thou..sob..sob..gonna miss mrsm..haha..haiz..
How sad..today, i met some1...but dunno larh...
ee, nothing larh. wakaka.

Anyway, back to track...IM HAPPY WITH MY RESULT!!!!!!! XD haha.
Very happy actually.. here are some result that i got...

Bm. PNG-78 SPM-71
BI. PNG-84 SPM-81
SJ. PNG-83 SPM-79
M3. PNG-84 SPM-81
PMO. PNG-74 SPM-69 (i don't study diz! haha)
+M3. PNG-50 SPM-42 (its was agonising..lol)
Yg len2 blm tau lagi..well, wats left is bio, phy and chem lagi..huhu.hope i can get 3.5!!! yeahh..u can do it sammy! lol.
orite then..im gonna pass now..wanna go take my bath first and then sambung on9 lagi..haha..

TOODLESS..=)

HE ASK A QUESTION THAT DID NOT SHOCK ME..

2009-10-18T21:32:00.000-07:00

Miahaha. Yes, he did. Owh GOSH. What should I tell him now? Lalala~ I don't know what to do. Do I really <3>
Whatsoever. Nvm.

So, I'll write something less confusing la. Hehe. So, today I'm going back to MRSM. Mann..give me a break. Exam is just in 2 weeks..and me? What am I doing?! *sigh
How pathetic.

And I still haven't done my Folio Keluarga..damn it..Why it have to be a qualification to get ur graduation? Adeh. So I better do It before I've been found sobbing coz i can't get my graduation. Lol.

Okay, enuff with all the drama. Back to reality. Tehee~ So, just so u all know I got a brand new hp. Well, sort of. Its LG, Cookie. My dad give it to me as a birthday sweet 16th present. Hehe ^^ I love it. Just that..its hard to text with a screentouch hp. Lol.

So, this is how it looks like.

And just now I read Nurelle's blog, And I totally agree with her bout MARESMA. Hehe. Well, I like that school..just that..the peeps was too "cetek" in thinking. Yeah. Its true. Not all of them, but some I might say. But like she n everyone said, MARESMA is the only ticket for us which was grateful enough to go study overseas. So, we should use this oppurtunity wisely and be more serious about our future.
I know some might say.."Lama lagi bha tuu...haiz..jan la ko risau bha.." So I was like.."Jd, bla la ko mau mula ni? bla bisuk SPM suda? adeh." Haha.

I have set my goal now. 1st, to study harder! 2nd, Looks for better options in life. Tehee~ and lastly, make my parents proud. =]

Allright then. Thats all from me. This might be my last post b4 going back to Maktab. Hehe.

Till then, toodles. =]

A new me. I guess =.="

2009-10-18T04:32:00.000-07:00

WeLL, as you all can c..Im changing my layout! oh yeah! I told you im gonna get a rainbow for a layout..yeah2. I'll stop. tehee (^^)

SO, its been a while since I update my blog. Phew, i know..Its a very lonnnggg time! haha. ok so where do i start? umph. how bout school? (my life must b so pathetic) haha. well, school was ok. and exam is just around the corner. i don't even start to study yet. lol. oh well, i start 2morrow..haha..FOR REAL.. ^^

I guess, i should tell you a bit of my secret..that i kept for so long..somehow i just like him ^^
What?
Who's him?
U'll know someday.

owhh...he will never know that i love him all this time..pity me..

T.T

Geez..all of the sudden i become a diffrent person. Lol. Anyway, I just wanna bluff around. Dunno what to write agen. So, I'll post something better to read sooner or later.

TOODLES! [^^]

I think I'm falling for you ;) <3

HOliday! Holiday! Holiday!

2009-09-16T00:33:00.000-07:00

Yeahuu! Finally! Holiday comes! Well, I reach home at 1.30pm yesterday..Feel so tired..so crash in my bed..haha
Hopefully, this holiday gonna be joyful! And I'm gonna change my layout and everything in my blog..coz..haha! im not emo anymore..
I'm living and breathing..So, I need rainbow to bright my day ;))

Owhhh mannn..

2009-09-12T20:30:00.000-07:00
huhu..i think im in love again...NOOOO!x(

When all thing got worst... :(

2009-05-29T00:48:00.000-07:00
Mannnn......I just got home and it feel like s***t...not bout im getting home but now that I know I'm just to busy to have my social life! Haiz..sometimes I blame myself...sometimes i wonder...did anyone miss me? Did anyone ever thought how am I today? How am I doing today? Coz I'm so upset.... :(

I'm so upset...... T.T

I feel like I'm not myself, feel like I'm just an ugly doll that everyone can kick my ass off from them..
Feel like I'm losing my friends...feel like I'm losing everyone! T.T
Who would know anyway how I trully feel....

And from time to time, as time goes by,
I lost her faith, I lost her love,
I just can't get enough,
To be in so desperate way to tell her how I really do care... T.T
How I really do want to make her happy..
How I just simply want to see those big grin she had..
I just...just..I just...want her to know...
She's special..No matter how busy I am...
She's still not forgotten..
She's still not hated..

Hope I could wish upon a star...

And wish, that..

When the tears & fears come to her..I will come first
When the situation is windy..I'll stop it..

But,

She will never know..never know..
How it feel to be a daughter,sister,friend and a student especially if it was me..
Even if U are Too..
You'll never know...
Let it go,
I'm losing faith..........

TaekWonDo Tournement at MRSM Transkrian Pulau Pinang..

2009-05-01T19:57:00.000-07:00
Yihuu! xD On 26th, we went to Penang for the Taekwondo tournement. Doi, first time this me naik kapal..haha! Kin malu ja. but there's first time for everything. We woke up early in the morning lagi..c Marlene awal lagi kc bgn me..mentang2 depan ja bilik dia..hoho..2.50am diz she wake me up..but jam 3 sumthing bru me bgn..wahaha! So we're ready to roll to the airport. Terminal 2. We are flying by airasia. okok. let me show some of the pix me took at the airport..

-Marlene&Charlene-

-Me&Nurelle-

-Team MRSM KoKi-

Huhu..I seat beside Laura..my seat num is 26B..oho..I want to seat near the window but whatsoever..haha..sakai la katakan..haha..

~Me&Laura~

Then we have landed at Penang safely..wuhuu..x)

~Me,Eba,Ann~

And this is a pic where my SIR(coach Mursidi) being sot~ haha

~Sir Mursidi bergandingan tangan wf the patung~lol

Hehe..so here r some pic that we took for fun..haha..overall i have alot of experience, bitter and sweet experience...hehe..we got 2gold n 2silver..oklaituu..better than didn't get anything kan? but huhu..our team pattern kalah diz..i mean my team pattern..hopefully next year we'll do better..

Our YeLL,

"Siapa Pemenang? Tak tahu..tak tahu.."
"Siapa Pemenang? KoKi KoKi!!"
"KoKi mesti menang! MESti mesTI!"

Hehe..

If u want more..just go to my FS...

http://profiles.friendster.com/mylifeiscomplicated

Adioz!=)till next time..

Little time, Much experience...x)

2009-04-11T00:44:00.000-07:00
Hey all! Its been a while that I didn't updated my blog. Hoho. Well, my schedule is packed with so much stuff everyday! Especially now that I'm one of the student schooling at MARA Juniour Science College. Talking bout MJSC or better known as MRSM let me give a brief intro bout my last almost 3 weeks schooling there. Hoho.

When we went for the registration, I'm puzzled if this what I really want coz seeing my dad spent a lot of money for me is killing me!x( But, I tried to act cool. After taking some stuff at the ko'op we went to the ASPURI(Girls Dorm). At first, I'm scared because I didn't know what to expect. Moreover, the dorm looked kinda creepy..and when I step right in my room there's two bed that is empty..Mine was near the window..The room can fit in 4 peeps at a time..So I checked out my locker..Daanng! Its messy! DIRT AND DUST everywhere! And the 'F' words is written on my locker..That's when I thought "Ugh, this gonna take a very long time to cope with"..But that time I haven't meet my roomate yet coz it was studies hour..Then we went to my ex school back coz I forgot my SURAT TAWARAN..then went to a tailor to make me a baju kurung uniform..Then went home, do some stuff like eat n about 2 something its about time for me to actually experience the boarding school life..x( huhu..when I reach the dorm..I experience a very loud noise that I couldn't imagine! Haha! So yeah, went to my room and finally met my roomate Stephanie(ponY) and Michell(Mitchie)..There're both very friendly I thought..and then a lot of peeps kept came into the room.. They were like "Owhh, ko pla Samantha tuu" I was "yeahh..hehe..(mcm mna lagi dorang knal sa ni?)" haha. While I arranged my stuff in my locker, I also cit-chat with them. About what? Haha. SECRETS! hehe..Anyway, in about 4pm I have a new roomate! She's also the 2nd intake studs'..her name is Abigail..I thought "GREAT! At least I'm not the only new studs in the room" huhu. Then I asked Pony to take me to Easther room..that is upstairs..We lost for a little while..haha!xD An announcement were made for the new students to go to the Kuliah hall at 8.30pm. So we went la..it was nothing just a brief intro bout what MRSM really is..and bla.bla.bla..after that, we went to see our class..Me,Easther and Abigail had the same class 4 Zamrud..Kin takut diz at first the studs..Like crazy bha them all..haha!xD Then went back to the dorm..I can't sleep!!!!x( Coz I'm homesick! Got this very few seconds that my teardrops heavily..I feel so empty bha..U know, first time kan..But I slept eventually..

The next day, woke up early. Went breakfast n roll call early. huhu. Then we went to our class. I still remember the goosebumps that I got that time. Haha!xD Me n Easther sit together. But the first day was oh-so-not-welcoming..the studs mcm buat tetau ja yg ada stud baru sna..hoho..but we act cool ja la..haha!xD The first till the 3rd day I struggle to cope with the life there but after that..I'd showed my true colours..hehehe..xD My classmate is also very friendly now. Here are my classmates 4 Zamrud..

-Sandra-Balqis-Suhaimah-NurHafizah-Pamela-Wanda-Afiqah-Fathi-Susyiati-Athirah-Ridzuan-Dannysius-Nixxon-Govind-Josaphat(Easther's Twins!!!!xD)-Din-Adlee-Amirul-Wan-Matthew-Ariff-Hisham-

That's all that I could remember. Huhu. So after a few weeks, I realized that I liked it here. Haha!xD I don't think there's alot to take care of. No need to cook,swept and such things like that. Haha!xD N of course now I know how to play the rubiks cube allready! haha!xD N I'll be going to MRSM Transkrian on 25th April representing the Taek-Won-Do team for MRSM KoKi. Hehe. Just here, there's alot of competition and you have to study day to night..Huhu..Aite then..that's all for now..

Thing big, big bling,
Get big, it'll ring.
xD

TTFN!

2009-03-22T14:52:00.001-07:00
HEy readers, i'm going to MRSM KK today. So there will be no longer blogging of me.hehe. SO yeah..going to miss ya'all(friends) hehe...muahh!xD

>borrr-ringgg<

2009-03-18T08:28:00.000-07:00
Its soooO boring here! I just wanna have some fun on my holidays. But yeahh everyday will be oh-so-boring! I can't do anything. Except texting, surfing net, watching tv, and play games. I mean durhh..one word BORING! I hope tomorrow will be less bored than this. Huhu. Tomorrow, we have plan to meet the dentist! Yeee-haaa!

Let me tell you something, I always feel insecure with my teeth structure. Its just so damn ugly! I mean..for God sake! 1st. My teeth had a gap in between my front teeth 2nd. I had this unbalanced structure of teeth.. Ughh.. How I wish I could get a nice, white, and well-balance teeth someday. So I want to emphasize here to those who had beautiful white teeth..take good care of your teeth! Cause everyday, I'd pray for those beautiful great teeth that you had. Hehehehe. What kinda crap I'm talking bout?! Haha. Yeahh..I miss everybody!:'( especially, my closest and dearest friend. Umphh...("~) Stop being so emo. Hehe. This few days I'm kinda sensitive. I just don't know why. I get angry easily, get frustrated easily and get upset easily. Phew! What's wrong with me? Its 11.43pm now. The day had gone so fast, why can't it last? I don't wanna fuss but we are us. Its time for me to sleep now, rhyme had gotten me again. So lets close our eyes now, let the dream got into you..again..and..again. Haha! You see, I love playing with rhyme..its fun..hehe..allright, its time to go now(am I rhyme-ing again?) haha..gtg..

in the midnight i'll sleep,
in the night i'll peek,
in the bright i'll breath,
in the dark i'll zZZZ....

;D

This is for my girlfriends that had her heart broken..

2009-03-17T05:12:00.000-07:00
Forget his name,

Forget his face,

Forget his kiss,

Forget his warm embrace,

Forget the love that you once knew,

Remember he has someone new,

Forget him when they played your song,

Remember when you cried all night long,

Forget how close you once were,

Remember he has chosen her,

Forget how you memorized his walk,

Forget the way he used to talk,

Forget the things he used to say,

Remember he has gone away,

Forget his laugh forget his grin,

Forget the dimples on his chin,

Forget the way he held you tight,

Remember he's with her tonight,

Forget the time that went so fast,

Forget the love that moved, its past,

Forget he said he'd leave you never,

Remember he's gone forever.

Lets make it clear......

2009-03-17T04:00:00.000-07:00
Lets make it clear,

I love you,

Why you look so blur?

When I said I miss you?

Yes I'm moving,

Yes I'm transferring,

But no I'm not forgetting,

and I'm not leaving,

You..don't feel so blue..

I promise you we'll stick like a glue.

Because when you love someone, he will stay in your heart,

Because when you love someone you'll remembered him even you're far apart,

I know its hard,

But I know someday you'll understand.

Let's made it clear,

I love you,

Please cheer,

Cause I miss you.

;)

Sincerely,
+Sis Sam+

I'm sorry I can't make it...=(

2009-03-17T03:13:00.001-07:00

I'm soooOOOO sorry LIL NATE! That I can't met you at church last Sunday!!:'(
Me& my family had to shop for the stuff that I need in hostel at MRSM. So we don't go and next Sunday also I can't go...1st there's no Sunday school and we going to take our mass at Tuaran..my hometown...x( So sorrrrryyyy!!!!! I want to text you but I don't have any credit. Sorry hun.........................................I'll promise we'll keep in touch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU ALWAYS,
+Sis Sam+

Geez its so boring..

2009-03-14T02:03:00.001-07:00
Yeahh...it is.. Actually, I had stopped onlining for awhile but as I said ITS SO DAMN BORING! So gotta start on9 back. Haha. I just read my Aunt's blog and she's blogging bout me. Haha!

To Aunty Lulu(ngehehe):
Big Deal. Its a piece of cake to change your layout. Haha! But don't ever change it to classic again. Hee. Yeah, thanks aunt. I'll appreciate the advices you gave me. Hee. Especially this one "leave all the broken heart behind, he doesnt deserve u girl..." Hehe. And aunt you'll be your own BILL GATES wanna-be too someday. Haha. I won't study hard..but I promise you I'll study smart..hehe.

Well, well, well what should I write now? Umph("~)
Okay, I'll write about MRSM..Pheww! There's alot of $$$ to spend to be one of the student there. Haha. For the registration I have to pay RM270 and for the ko'op I have to pay amazingly RM300! Haha. That's not even half of it..I also have to pay RM50 for insurance. When my mum told me the prices I was like "sayyyy whattt???!!" Huhu. I'm shocked its that expensive. And of course I have to buy alot of T-shirt, tracksuit, Baju Kurung, soap, bla.bla.bla...Huu. And my surat lepas school also I didn't minta lagi. Hehe. I just knew it last Thurs okay..Owh ya! Talking bout last Thurs..that day was my best day in the drama's team! I trained them English..some are very good and some need improvement..And that day we played TRUTH OR DARE! So fun ow! I never thought It will be the last day practising with them thou'. :'( Hurh. Yeah. I know..I should boost up my confidence. Hee. Now, I'm kinda cool down and be in more relaxation situation. Haha. Well, I'm gonna miss alot of things and stuff in SMKL. Yesh, I WILL!xD I won't forget you all! That's my promise.

I want u to save this picture....=)

2009-03-14T00:25:00.000-07:00

Yes, you are not forgotten..;)

We smile coz we're kids..lol

........

Yiakess!xD

I'm gonna miss ya all!x]

2009-03-13T19:22:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna miss my BFF!

I'm sure gonna miss to wear this T-shirt.

I'm gonna miss to wear this tracksuit...

I'm gonna miss ya all........aww....;)

I'm moving to another school-MRSM KKl!

2009-03-12T09:04:00.000-07:00

Owhh man...oWh boy!xD I can't believe that this will actually happen to me..I'm happy
but at the same time I'm so sad to leave my friends especially to all my besties at SMKL(Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Limbanak)....
It's sad but I got to do what I got to do. I hate it but I had to do it. Umph("~)
I just reached home from school. My last day of school in SMKL. =( I cried!!!!!!

HaiZZ~

Its so hard to not cry because when they said "Sam!! Ko mo pindah sudah kan? Good luck and all the best there k!! Byeee!!!" and then they hugged me, I felt like I'm losing something. I was like, please do not cry Sam..don't! But eventually I did....Well, what can I do? Umph. I only can tell you that I will not take this oppurtunity for granted..I won't! NeVEr!
Me and Easther will register at MRSM KK on 23/3/09. One week to go. I think I won't do blogging frequently anymore. Coz you know, I'm in a boarding school. For this time being let me describe bout my classmate year 08' and 09'.

(classmate from 06' to 08') 1 gemilang till 3 Gemilang.

Bo Tiza
She's my BFF! Kami lah yg paling gila. Kami lah yg paling sot! But now we're not in the same class anymore and soon we will not be in the same school anymore. sob..sob..

Aaron
My friend. He's supposed to be the Hero in the drama's with me as the heroin but I'm moving. sob..sob

Kallai Vanni
She's funny! We always laughing out loud together.

Charmine
A very creative person. She's cute.

Sheroline
Very sensitive.

Alan
Dulu kuat btul mgumpat! Haha. But now he's not.

Stacy
Always been a target to the male teacher. Haha.

Deidre
Someone who I can always talk about the TV's drama or show. Haha!

Rebecca
Diam-diam ubi berisi. Hehe.

Timmy
I used to call him timm-my. Haha. He's humourous.

Rendy
He's always a weirdo in class. Huu.

David
Brings laughter in the class. Unfortunately, he allready moved to Teknik Keningau.

Maxter
Haha. He's a funny-guy!

Almanzo
Paling sot~ haha

Clarance
He's such a smart kid! But kinda 'samseng' I guess.

Jourinthinus
Such a nuisance. Haha.

Arnaz
He's great in academics. He's also great in making jokes. Huhu.

Vincent
Haha. We actually don't quite talk to each other.

Ikhteeyar
He had move to MRSM Tawau. Many peeps said we look alike. Haha. Din't really close with him.

Chrisdone(Classmate since 07')
Such a funny girl! Haha! And she's naughty too.

Hidayah(Classmate for the year 08')
She's sooooooooooo insanely crazzzzyyyyy!! Haha!
Classmate for the year 09'

These peeps are all back to the same class with me.

-Jourinthinus -Rendy -Aaron -Timmy -Clarance -Vincent -Rebecca -Stacy -Deidre -Arnaz -Charmine -Kallai -Alan

And these is my new classmate..(4 Gemilang)

Jason
Gila2. But we kinda have chemistry with each other. Haha!

Easther
Her laughter is soO loud and it'll made peeps wanna join laughing with her. Haha! And she's gonna join me moving to MRSM KK. Hee.

Alfondavinci
He pronounce FALSAFAH like this FALASAFAH..haha!

Feliny
Our class monitor. She's fierce! rawrrr! haha

Erma
A very good listener.

Romain
Paling bkin spoil form 4 gem's..sorry romain..hehe

Daniel
The assistant class monitor..hee..he can sing very well.

Mohd. Danial
He don't talk in class but he's good in most of the subject especially HISTORY. Haha.

Now,my class teacher

From form 1 till 3(gemilang)

Teacher Peggy Ak. Nondin
She's caring. She's like our mum.

Form 4(Gemilang)

Teacher Rozita Buyoh
She's funny but she's serious. Hee.

That's all.

taggy taggy!xD

2009-03-06T23:56:00.000-08:00
Love Survey: You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY!!

1.Are you currently in a relationship?
~Neahhhhh.........

2.Have you ever been given a teddy bear?
~yeahhh....of course! mum&dad...friends..him..haha!

3.What are your all-time favorite love story movie?
~TITANIC! SHREK!!!!!!!

4.Are you in love right now?
~urhh....im not sure...

5.Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate?
~HELL YEAHHH!

6.What's your current problem?
~studying...struggling with times...

7.Have you ever had your heart broken?
~owhhhh.........ah'ha!

8.Your thoughts ON online or long distance relationships?
~iskkk.....neverrr! but on second thought it might be interisting..hoho!

9.Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
~urhhh.......yeahh..yeahh..

10.how many kids you want to have?
~i want a dozen! hahahha

11.What is/are your favorite color/s?
~Pretty much anything...

12.Who is your celebrity crush
~ADAM LAMBERT! He's soooo cute!!!!^.^

13.Do you believe you truly only love once?
~urhhhh....No..no..no

14.Imagine you're 40 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married?
~hahahahaha....wait&see!

15.Do you believe in love at first sight?
~OWHH YEAH! That's how I got my first true love.

16.What song do u want to be played at your wedding?
~Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Calliat...

I tagged:
-Joanne Karen(she always tag me so now I'll tag her!)
-Bo Tiza(haaa....she's a must!)
-Donella Hazel(first time tagging her)
-Rubyanne(first time too)
-and youuuuuu-huuuu!xD

Today..not so fun...

2009-03-06T18:31:00.003-08:00
Please, do keep in your mind I'm a normal human being. I am someone who have feelings just like you do. So when you said something that makes me worried I didn't wish for you to play me. Whatsoever. Its ridiculous. Huhr.

I'm so freaking mad today! Because.........

He sent me stupid message.
I can't participate in the taekwondo competition!!!!!!!!=(
I'm mad with myself......\

I just wanna participate in the Taekwondo competition!!!!!! I really..really..really...want tooooo! But sadly, my siblings was sick..so, we can't compete la! Isk. What to do..Mr.Bag I'm sorry that I'm not in love with you..I just like you..not more than that..For now, I didn't really know whom that I really love..But of course, God is obvious..Family & friends. But who's that special someone? My prince charming? Who would even love me? Umph("~) You tell me. I'll wait..For you to come...you will come..right? Oh, Dear Good Lord help me.

"I am not ashamed to tell you that I believed in miracles"

tagged again by Joanne Karen[^.^]

2009-03-06T06:23:00.000-08:00
Rules of this tagging. Follow it or you'll be dammed!Just follow the rules, would you?Here are the rules....

1.First, colour which personality are you. Pls, be HONEST! 2.Answer some questions. 3.Be happy with your answer. 4.Tag 5 people.

Which of these are your personality? Be honest. [Colour it.]
- Caring -
- Selfish -
- Kind-hearted -
- Ass a.k.a Jerk -
- Nice -
- Naughty -
- Friendly -
- None of the above..Liar!! -

I'm all of the above! Haha! Well, what can I say? I'm multi-sammy. Haha!

The QUESTIONS!! Ready...Set..Go..!! Answer it!

1. Have you ever been selfish to anyone? Who's that person?
~I can't recall but I am pretty selfish..depends..hehe

2. Are you naughty or nice?
~ngehehe..Both..

3. Have you ever lied to anyone? Your friends? Parents? Bf/gf? Teachers?
~Yeahh...in times of desperation I had to lie..sorry God! I'll go mengakun bha nanti....ehehe

4. Do you like to make fun of people bout their looks, body-size or anything ?
~totally not me! I'm not that kind of person.

5. Do you gossip? Honest please.
~who don't? huhu

6. What's the worst thing that you've done and regretting it?
~the fact that I Love Him....;(

7. Do you hate the world?
~Why should I?

8. What would you do to make this world a better place to live ?
~I would invent a device that would spread love to the whole world!!!hahaha!
KUnunZ la..

9. If you won One Billion, what would you do with the money?
~1 Billion? Umph. There's alot to do with that enourmous amount of money.
1st..I would donate to the peeps who need it the most..2nd..I would love to spend it with my family..But surely, for myself....I just want a trip to met ADAM LAMBERT! Hahaha!

10. Last Q..please be true when answering this one. Seriously. Do you hate yourself?
~Seriously, I love myself! Honestly, sometimes I hate myself! Hehehehe. But peeps please.....L.O.V.E yourself just the way you are!

My fav hottie-hot-hottie!xD

2009-03-06T05:47:00.000-08:00
Here's My Fav Hottie in the whole world!!!!!xD
I'm extremely! absolutely! 100%-ly LOVE ADAM LAMBERT! OMG!
He's cute. He's adorable. He can sing!!!!xD
I really love him! Hahaha! Call me nuts but I know you love him too! Haha!

Gosh...he's driving me crazy!xD

Chinese New Year PicTure!xD

2009-01-27T22:29:00.000-08:00

As i had promise I will upload some of the CRAZY MOMENT of us. haha.
ENJOY!xD

we love her...

this is so candid!

isn't it awesome?haha

wuhuu!xD

We ol are related 1st cousin

Huhu..

Happy CNY!

2009-01-26T19:10:00.000-08:00
wuhuu...GONG XI FAT CHAI! cny was a blast!=] yesterday, i went collecting angpau in variety of house..haha..not to forget! im half chinese too! for those who din know..u should now.. later la i upload the pitcha when uS goNe wiLd! haha. so funny. allrighty, that's all that i can write now. gotta do some housework..SEE YA! WOULDN'T WANNA BE YA!xD

24th January 2009

2009-01-23T18:49:00.002-08:00

Haloha readers! its been a long time that i didn't update my blog. well, kinda bz with homework. Science class is ok actually but what's make it hard is the massive amount of homework! huhu. its been a week long and im still sick! huhu. poor me. hey, mrbigmulletsmile! im falling in love with u again! damn! ughh! what should i do??? giving him another chance?? umphh..well, i've done a lot of thinking and i m sure wanna b single now. let him b. let it b. im bored in having a relationship. biarla. pdulikan. just live my life. huhu(^.^) [i think so..hehe]

Oh gosh...xD

2009-01-15T20:38:00.001-08:00

HaLoha! I Just reach home from school and of course straight away onlining. haha. Ok. Today's title is 'OH GOSH' because I kinda have this crush with someone. hehe. I call him Mr.SweetPotato. I think he had crush on me too!xD hopefully. I like his figure and his cool personality. aitZ! I like him!;) but not that deeply in love of course. i just like him. hehe. Owhh..i can't write his name here coz i don't want to reveal my secret yet.hehe. Later perhaps. Surely I wanna forget bout mr.bigmulletsmile! Just not into him. But why I still kept thinking bout him? come on sam!please don't give up! huhu.:'( probably, I still have dissatisfaction towards him. ughh, forget him. He's not in today's topic anyway. Well, sort of. Huu. Like yesterday, we have a lot of homework to do this week! Gosh! I hope I can finish it. Plus we have to go to school tomorrow cause wanna cover the Chinese New Year holiday. It is sure a tiring week for me and all science class students. And as I had apply for MRSM, I'm crossing fingers for it!xD Allrighty....

Till next time, TTFN!
-SamanthaNicole-

school..homework..family

2009-01-15T02:15:00.000-08:00

HaLoha!xD just so u know, I HAVE A LOT OF HOMEWORK to be done! Fortunately, I allready finish it all. THANK GOD! Hehe. That's why I can online now if not 'jangan harap!' haha. Ok NOw i wanna write bout the day I met the 'bkn principal tp PK.Hem' hehe. I thought im going to met the principal but I'm wrong. That day my mummy was so mad at me cause I was acting cool even it allready 6.30am. She said "Why u don't wanna change for urself? u wanna reach to school late again ka?". N like usual I'm unspoken. Malas actually. But we do reach early to school anyway and guess what? We had to wait for 25minutes outside of the office! All my friends was clueless why I went to school that day coz they didn't know my problems yet. Moreover that day was holiday coz our school had this merentas desa kinda thing so that's add more to their curiousity. haha. And then we met Pk.Hem..it went pretty well and didn't take alot of times just 10minutes. Now I'm insaf la kunun. haha.

Today my uncle and his fiancee-to-be will stay at my house.
My house is so LOUD coz tons of people were here. Haha! That's just the way my family are.
Allrighty! Going to watch the audition for American Idol season 8.

Till next time!TTFN!

-SamanthaNicole-

how bout 2day?

2009-01-12T04:28:00.000-08:00

Today I'm home alone! Everybody's going out except me coz I can't go to school yet. Tomorrow I will have an appointment with our principal to make an agreement 'supaya tidak dtg lmbt lg'. But what's sucks is tomorrow we didn't have any PNP and I was like whaaatt??!! cause I miss to wake up early and go to school like every teenager's my age would do. So it's gonna be my 5th day of Homing Alone. I'm still a bit neverse bout what's gonna happen tomorrow. I can't predict anything this time. Yeah..whatever..forget it. NEW TOPIC PLEASE!
Let's talk bout the RAJALAWAK season 3 show. My fav was AMIR!! He was such a funny guy!! hahahahaha!! My family was laughing out loud remembering how funny he was. His trademark was "IM SORRY" which was not really that funny but remarkably he made it funny! Hope he gonna win the show. Yesterday I went to Taek-Won-Do training and it's kinda fun, I've sparring with my lil sister. I guess I won..xD but our coach say that I still have a lot of practice to do to improve my skills since its allready been a long time I didn't go training. My coach want us to get ready for a tournement that will be held at Kompleks Belia & Sukan Negeri Sabah probably by the month of March. Soooo..he said there's no excuse why we can't go to training and also said if we didn't come to training he will call us right away asking our problems of not coming to the training. Pretty tough aite? Last but not least we also have to build up six pax for the upcoming tournement at
Politeknik. WUhUu..its gonna be rough and hard..that's for sure. Wish me LucK anyway!xD

TiLL next time! TTFN
-SamanthaNicole-

today's story..

2009-01-10T07:21:00.000-08:00

My Today's is so boring and full with dull kinda thing. I've nothing much to say anyway but i'll try to write as long as i can get. Hopefully next Tuesday everythings gonna be fine. Gotta say sorry to teacher Cyn. and hopefully my zit will not ruin my imej..hehe..ughh..its too ugly to b on my face!huhu. anyway..im stressing out with the way sleep! huhu. i dnt have any insomnia but i cant sleep even when im sleepy..how do i gonna overcome this? huhr. i will have the answer sooner or later. life's been boring without school. without friend of course. but getting in class and with that guy? durhh..i'd better b home than seeing his ugly yucks face
i won't tell u who is it but i call him bigmulletsmile haha! feeling guilty writing bout him in not a very nice way..but whatever he ask for it..there's no forgiveness for him..but i'd forget him eventually..YEAH for me!xD haiz..SFC!y u din reply my message? huhu..r u busy or u don't have any credit? yeahh right. im bored to death in my superduber dull life. hhu. what am i talking bout? ive no idea. allrighty im sleepy and needed my time to rest. thanks 4 reading!

But today's my life is still full with LOVE.

First post First creation..

2009-01-10T01:02:00.000-08:00

Hye peeps! Since this is my first post i won't write to much. hehe. im bored. very bored!nothing to do and im feeling stress. o yeahh..thats all..i told u its gonna b short! hehe..rite...TTFN!